Aw man :(

May. 27th, 2017 09:58 pm
nanslice: ([FFXV] a prince and his retainer)
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I am sunburned. ;3; The work party thing ended up being not so bad, mainly because not a lot of people showed up, haha. But the dogs were cute and the people were nice and that's all that really matters I guess. When we got home, I passed out on the couch for a couple of hours because it had been so hot all day and I was exhausted. And some point during the nap, Penelope slept on my neck/chest, which is always wonderful. :\ And then I woke up and mowed the rest of the backyard because grass waits for no man and honestly, it really needed to get done.

Now I'm even more tired because our backyard is all hill and all we have is a push mower, but my weekend starts now. I have coffee and my paints (heeeey, I finally cleaned up my studio!) and I'm going to see if I can finish this little painting before I go to bed. :)

Moving forward

May. 27th, 2017 10:54 am
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So I started on Lexapro a few weeks ago. She gave me an intro dose, basically, and it went pretty well. A few dizzy spells, some sleep interruption, but otherwise okay. I saw her last week and she bumped me up to the therapeutic dose. No side effects yet, KNOCK WOOD.

I saw some small improvements on the original dose--I was less obsessive about my routines at my parents, and was able to quit playing my Avengers Academy game entirely. I've seen fewer on the new dose, but that could also be because of my period, which can throw things off whack anyway. I was super low motivation/energy all weekend, and mostly just collapsed on my couch and read. I'd hope I'd have some more energy, but again, period. Hopefully things will be better as the week goes on. I need to get my place much, much cleaner before my family comes over next Tuesday!

I started that Monday. Here's a sign that the new dose is working: when I got the text at work on Tuesday that my mother's blood pressure was scary high (couldn't register on the bp cuff high) and I needed to drive home and meet her at the hospital, I was upset and worried but not panicked. So, hey, there's that.

My poor mom. I suspect it was anxiety, or stress, or anxiety+stress. She said she had a perfectly awful wreck of a weekend--their town hosts carnivals and other fun things that aren't accessible. When a group of citizens set up a new fest in the same area, she asked them to make sure it was accessible. There was some back and forth, they were resistant, she was insistent (and strong worded, as is her way), and then they asked her to join the committee and make it accessible if it was so important to her.

And it was, so she agreed. She put together ideas, created little folders for all of them and hoped that she might finally make some friends in this town where they've lived for five years. She gets there, starts talking, one person ignores her entirely in favor of her computer and then the person that my mother initially talked with over Facebook went on the attack. For thirty minutes. It was a total mean girls set up and they didn't want her on the committee, they just wanted the chance to attack off Facebook. So mom was very, very upset.

And then there was crap with her younger brother (my idiot uncle), crap at work, the stress of my brother and Dad being Dad and the dog and she started to feel sick on Sunday. She tried to mitigate it by processing the meeting with Dad, and she went for a facial on Monday and talked it out there too, but by Tuesday, she was still feeling sick and dizzy and her chest hurt and then there was the bp, so off she went for a full cardiac work up.

So I got there in about two hours, and was there for the last two hours of the hospital stay. They wanted her to stay overnight to have a stress test done, and she wondered if that would be a good reset for her stress level, but we thought my brother would have a hard time and make her return home much harder if it was the next day. So we went home, tests clear, and I'll go back up Monday night for her Tuesday am stress test.

I am typically a pretty peaceful person, always trying to see things from multiple perspectives, etc etc. But I have to say, I hate those ladies that hurt her with a fiery passion. I want to emotionally eviscerate them. I want them to feel guilt and shame until they are sick with it, and I want them to never get over it. I want them to hurt emotionally forever and ever, world without end, because an emotional hurt is harder to get over than a physical one. I have a very deep anger towards them.

I told mom I wondered if it was anxiety causing the problems, and she expressed surprise, because anxiety was a mental thing, and this was so physical. Yes, Mom. Anxiety provokes a physical response. I didn't quite spell out that that was a big part of my anxiety, but maybe she picked up on that.

So, that was a crazy mid-week break. I am still fairly low motivation, but E thinks that it might be my brain settling into new patterns without the go go go exhaustion of anxiety. It's not super awesome timing, but hopefully I will be better balanced once summer reading gets going. I will need energy for that. So much energy.

I have a lot to do this weekend, too, that I hope I can muster some enthusiasm for. Like, I desperately need to clean my place--even if my family wasn't still planning to come Tuesday afternoon, it needs it and I want it clean. But ugh. Motivation.

I also need to finish or continue transferring items to my new computer. At the very least, I need to have iTunes in working condition for my brother. I also need to do some mending, both for me and for my mother, meet Liss at the mall for my belated birthday stuff, work on Sunday and head home Monday. Normally this would be decently manageable (though the computer work does cause stress with the change), but again, low motivation and energy. Wish me luck.
nanslice: ([FFXV] a prince and his retainer)
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I have a problem, okay? [community profile] fffc is hosting their June special Mini Summer Bingo and I just had to sign up. XD

Table! )

I really like how ALL OF THESE could fit for FFXV. :\a But I'm going to try and do a nice fandom spread instead, haha.

EDIT: Hiding the table behind a cut because it has spacing issues and the html is a little overly complicated and I'm not messing with it today. :\ But anyways, sleeping under the stars and karaoke bar definitely need to be FFXV, while idk about everything else. No clue. XD

Tomorrow my work is celebrating its 2 year anniversary with a dumb party with games and contests and stuff and people are bringing their dogs and bluh. I love dogs, in particular my dogs, but I'm so over being constantly surrounded by dogs. And tbh I don't really care for the people who are planning on showing up either. :\ Also, boss's super homophobic asshole boyfriend is going to be there grilling hotdogs, so just. Freaking end me and also keep me in your thoughts. ;;;;


May. 26th, 2017 09:11 pm
musyc: Draco and Pansy, captioned "toil and trouble" (Draco: Pansy toil and trouble)
[personal profile] musyc
A lovely person on Tumblr made a mood/aesthetics board inspired by a fic of mine. Delightful! Right this way. Reblog if you like! Support Draco and Pansy being snaky, snarky best friends. XD

What'd I miss?

May. 26th, 2017 11:09 pm
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Eurovision thoughts: MOLDOVA WAS FUCKING ROBBED.

An incomplete list of stuff I did while away from the internet: art (pencils, oil paint, watercolours), minimal writing (did you know it's hard to write without a computer), swimming (3K IN 1H42!!! record à battre), read a lot (mostly in French --  also I have thoughts), was told that I wasn't an asshole, had my teeth hurt like bloody hell (it's nothing to worry about), saw friends, went on dates, learned some poems and probably spent longer going "OMG I HAVE MUSCLES NOW :D" than I should have, but you know what? I HAVE MUSCLES NOW!  Hell, yesterday I even managed 100 push-ups (in 10 sets of 10, not in one go). I am severely regretting this choice today, but I did.

Between voluntary break, Eurovision and broken computer, I've been away for pretty much a month. WHAT'D I MISS? It can be big stuff, small stuff, I'm sure I've missed a lot.

Target Fixation!

May. 26th, 2017 08:19 am
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Ugh, I'm completely blocked on the Hobbit Big Bang fic. I didn't even have the courage to open the file and read through the 3/4 of the story I had. I had four days free this week, and I did everything but write. Gah! So now I have long days for the next five days, so it will be even harder to find time to write (though when it's quiet at the store and I'm just cleaning, that's a great time to think about the story).

Part of the problem might be that I don't have a clear deadline at the moment like I had in April with Camp. According the timetable the posting for BB should start at June, but the mod haven't posted anything in the community since April, so hard to know what's supposed to happen. Of course it would be best to have the story finished in next few days, just in case, but apparently my writing brain is not on board with that plan. Damn.

And another writing conundrum: I looked through my remix assigment, and I got clear and immediate idea what I wanted to write. Here's the problem: last time I went with such idea, the fic turned out bit...disliked? So now I'm pretty gun-shy on immediate ideas, because they tend to land me in hot water. Except clear and immediate ideas are great; easy to start writing, and they propel you when you get stuck! That's why I would like to keep the idea, but...Hot water.

I'll brainstorm some other ideas, see if the immediate one holds up. Also, the Big Bang. Editing and rewriting that is more urgent, timetable wise.

doesn't feel like friday

May. 26th, 2017 08:52 am
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At this point, I don't even know what Friday should feel like.

My week has been crazy busy - or feels that way. And then a group of women from church are apparently doing something tonight and I've been invited.

Tomorrow night, I am ABSOLUTELY STAYING HOME. There will be no stirring. Not the slightest step off the property once I get home from the osteo.


Fandom 5k

May. 25th, 2017 11:38 pm
dhampyresa: (A most terrible case of the Star Wars)
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I wrote a pinch-hit for [community profile] fandom5k.
Pocketful of stories (5031 words) by sevenofspade
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types, Star Wars Original Trilogy
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Ahsoka Tano, Padmé Amidala
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Worldbuilding, Folklore
Summary: Ahsoka travelled the galaxy, collecting tales and sowing revolution along the way.

I had a lot of fun coming up with the various folktales intersped in this.

All the planets/people have different ways of framing stories.
  • Stories from Naboo start with either "Once upon a time, above wave, below stars" for the Gungan stories and "Once upon a time, below stars" for the non-Gungan stories.
  • Stories on Alderaan start with "Long ago on Alderaan" and by giving the main character's relationship to Queenship.
  • Stories on Pantora start with "When yesterday was yet to be" and end with a bracketed statement including the phrase "Do not believe them." -- they refute other versions of the story.
  • Clone stories are much more informal in tone and start with "They say this is a true story".
  • Ykobar stories start with "There was a time" which is a literal translation of the French "Il était une fois", the traditional start to a fairytale. They end in "The tale still goes on and is only just beginning".
The stories of the Kermor are variations on the tale of the city of Ys -- the word Kermor itself is made up of two Breton words, "ker" (meaning "a place where people live") and "mor" (meaning "sea"). I was originally going to go with "Morvac'h" ("Horse of the sea") -- especially given that it's part of some versions the Ys legend and can be a war omen -- but ultimately decided against it. The c'h sound tends to be confusing for people unfamiliar with Breton; it's a voiceless velar fricative -- the same sound as in loch.

I didn't sign up for [community profile] fandom5k because I didn't know if I would have time -- and I kind of ran out of time on this pinch-hit a bit -- but I should have signed up if I was going to end up writing for it anyway. Then again, given my computer issues, I wouldn't have been able to comment until yesterday/today, which seems like a dick move. Not that could have known either of those things at the time. What I'm trying to say is that I'll sign up next year.

Links Post

May. 25th, 2017 02:33 pm
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The Smithsonian: The Surprising Ingenuity Behind “Goodnight Moon”

My Modern Met: 11 Photographers Who Have Elevated Pet Photography into an Art Form

The Atlantic: A University That Prioritizes the Students Who Are Often Ignored

The Guardian: On the Road to the Summer of Love in Pictures

STAT NEWS: She’s got a radical approach for the age of superbugs: Don’t fight infections. Learn to live with them

The National Review: Trump’s Berating of Comey for the Consumption of Our Enemies

LA Times: How a remote California tribe set out to save its river and stop a suicide epidemic

The New York Times: Stories of New Orleans: As Monuments Go Down, Family Histories Emerge

I will be interested to see if the the Democratic party can get its collective head out of its collective ass pull itself together long enough to swing some districts blue and elect some of their candidates in 2018.

The Nation:

 Pramila Jayapal Wants Democrats to Know That Resistance Is Not Enough The freshman congresswoman from Washington thinks that this is the time when progressive ideas can go mainstream.

 Can Rob Quist’s Full-Throated Populism Win Back Rural America?

We'll see soon enough. Montana's special election is today.

Back to the NYT: What to Watch in Montana’s Special Election

boosting the signal!

May. 25th, 2017 06:03 pm
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I didn't do a WIP post yesterday since I'm frantically working on my [community profile] jukebox_fest these days, and that's supposed to remain secret. The deadline is so close! Eeek! There's a lot of other stuff happening though, so I figured I'd do a shout out post.

[community profile] wipbigbang is on its second round of Claims for artists. (My story has already been claimed YAY. That means I definitely need to finish it on time o.O *insert panicky kermit*) There's still over 60 stories free for a good artist, so check out the claiming post on LJ.

Nominations for [community profile] raremaleslashex  are closing soon as well. I'm definitely doing The Get Down, Kate Daniels, Naruto (KakaGai yo!) and The Course Of Honour, but I haven't figured out my Original Work nominations yet.

Sign-ups are also happening for [community profile] treatyoselfcomm , which is a fest where you write a fic for yourself, and ancquire a cheerleader in the process. I'm really excited about it. Definitely check that out.

Also open for sign-ups is [community profile] pod_together , where you can sign up as a podficcer or an author (or both!) and create a podfic together. It's loads of fun, and one of the best-run challenges/fests I've ever seen. This year is the first time I'm not signing up as part of a group, so I'm kind of nervous about matching.

Speaking about podfic, [personal profile] hagar made a podfic out of ever the tears you wept. I'm really honored, because that's one of my personal favorite stories, and podfic is one of the best gifts you can get. It's the whole reason I have blanket permissions, I love it so much. 

Anyway, it's looking like it's going to be a super busy summer, and that's not even counting the [community profile] getyourwordsout  7 days 7 Stories event that's taking place in June. I'm excited! And possibly a teensy bit worried I'm overextending myself, but fuck it, I'm going to try and kick ass!

Welcome to the Madness!

May. 25th, 2017 08:49 am
nanslice: ([FFXV] hands clasped so tight)
[personal profile] nanslice
WELL, uh, I watched Welcome to the Madness, Yuri Plisetsky's standalone (???) performance. Spoilers )

Anyway, so that happened.


May. 24th, 2017 10:57 pm
nanslice: ([sherlock] contemplation)
[personal profile] nanslice
The creative crash happened, which I knew it would sooner or later. Was kind of hoping for later, haha. Now I'm just kind of bored and blah, which is a bummer. When I got home from work today I started cleaning up my poor studio. I haven't been using it lately; I've just spread everything over the kitchen table, which really isn't the best way to go. XD Anyway, in cleaning, I found a set of acrylic paints that [personal profile] imperion bought a while back, which is great since someone at school stole mine. :( I also found some old home videos and cried over them because dang I miss my dad.

Apparently MerMay is a thing! I've had a passing interest in mermaids and I really like working in blues so I think I'm going to partake! Should be fun!

[community profile] seasonofkink is winding up for a new round starting June 1st! Considering how things are going for me wrt fanworks, I don't know if I should sign up. But I'm probably going to anyway. XD

GUESS WHO'S HYPED. Castlevania is one of those series that I was terrible at but I loved the characters and lore, haha. I'm excited! :3

EDIT: Also hey, I've been very outside of YoI fandom lately but I saw something about Welcome to the Madness so I looked up screenshots and huehuehue I'm probably going to be creating some stuff for Otabek/Yurio for [community profile] seasonofkink. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

huh, imzy is closing down

May. 25th, 2017 12:06 pm
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[personal profile] tielan
Apparently they couldn't find their niche.

imzy and me )

I'm sorry for the people whose style of social interaction/internet presentation Imzy suited, but it wasn't for me.

bombs away, here goes nothing

May. 24th, 2017 07:08 pm
kjata: (vidi in ampulla pendere)
[personal profile] kjata
24/5/2017 wordcount: 259 I've done worse. Done better, too, but deffo done a lot worse.

[community profile] treatyoselfcomm exchange is now open for sign-ups. It's designed so that you're writing for yourself, but with a deadline and an assigned cheerleader to get you to finish it. No penalty for dropping out apparently, but I like the concept so I signed up.

This is turning into another Summer of Kylux for me. There will be some Steve/Tony mixed in, but all my deadlines outside of the STH auction are Kylux-related now.

(except for the Not Prime Time fic, but shhhh, not allowed to talk about that one.)

more promotions

May. 25th, 2017 09:27 am
tielan: (MCU - Maria/Steve)
[personal profile] tielan
The [community profile] wipbigbang is still looking for artists. There's a whole range of stories that are looking for artists, whether graphics designers or fanmixers or illustrators.

(Yes, I'm in there; I don't know if I'm still waiting for an artist, I haven't checked. I'm a little iffy about whether or not I'll be finished in time, but I'm damn well going to try.)


And then [community profile] seasonofkink is starting up again from 1st June.

Rules | FAQ | Kink Prompts


May. 25th, 2017 02:10 am
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Treat Yo Self!

May. 25th, 2017 09:04 am
tielan: (don't make me shoot you)
[personal profile] tielan
A way to finish your stories? (Heaven knows I have plenty of those.)

[community profile] treatyoselfcomm is an exchange designed to reduce your backlog. Creators signup with works that they want to work on, and then are matched to someone who is interested in helping them. You create for six weeks, and then the archive is revealed with your work(s). Simple!



I'm interested, certainly, because having people to kick me along is always useful, but...I don't know. I won't have much time for the next month since I'm trying to finish the quilt I'm making for the show, and the timeline is pretty short for any of the longfics I have sitting around.

I'm debating whether or not to sign up for Marvel Bang this year, for much the same reason. Last year I had a lot more time b/c of project downtime. I don't expect the same this year. (I might end up with it if this 6 week contract isn't continued. I guess we'll see.)

WIP meme

May. 24th, 2017 10:38 pm
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[personal profile] john_amend_all

Memed from [personal profile] lost_spook and [personal profile] liadtbunny, a WIP meme. Though given the amount of writing I've done in the past five months, the possibility of any of these seeing the light of day seems remote:

WIPs follow )